The musings and ramblings of a horny, married and closeted gay guy!!!!
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
This blog proves that sometimes my life can be pretty uneventful. I seem to be in quite a lull at the moment. I'm just working going home getting up in the morning and going to work again - not even having any sex. I'm so horny and pretty frustrated.
I haven't heard anything about the job prospects - very doubtful whether anything will actually happen - but trying to remain positive. But remaining positive is proving sometimes to be harder and harder. I'm pretty down at the moment - just things in general family, financial and my weight.
Tomorrow I have an appointment to see my doctor - I seem to have acquired a list of pills I want from her. Still undecided which order to ask for things. I need something to calm me down, I'm very stressed at the moment and have a feeling my blood pressure is sky high. Because of all the things I'm worrying about I'm not sleeping properly either so need something to help me sleep.
But my main problem at the moment is my weight - since I started chemotherapy which contained a lot of steroids I've put on loads of weight. I think I need her to give me some kind of appetite suppresant. Perhaps one table can cure all - we shall see what she has to say!!!
I guess as the way I live my life is secret so are my feelings. To the "outside world" I'm still the same happy guy I always am, but inside there's lots of things worrying and bothering me. Hopefully a few coloured chemicals from my wonderful doctor will make things seem much better!
I'm sure everything will work out just fine in the end. More positive thinking - as Oprah says: If you think positive thoughts, positive things happen. Maybe bullshit, but when you're down in the dumps you tend to accept any advice offered.
Thank you all for listening and commenting.
The picture of the naked man is purely to put a dirty smile on my face and hopefully yours too. Enjoy!
I'm just a pretty normal married, closeted gay guy on the outside and a pretty complex guy on the inside. I've had cancer and been through quite a lot of stuff. Just looking to have fun and share my experiences with others!