Wednesday, 31 March 2010

Feeling Horny

I follow a lot of blogs.  The vast majority of them aren't updated particularly regularly and just contain either pictures of videos.  Most of them aren't very much of a turn on.  I think I am finding myself much more turned on by the written word than just pictures of a naked guy.  Everyone has their own idea of what they're attracted to.  I once had a friend who was "obsessed" by a particular gay porn star - they porn star was beautiful but I prefer to fantasize about someone who is much more attainable.

Personally, the perfectly built, muscular porno starts don't really do it for me.  Sure I appreciate the beauty of the man but  I'm much more attracted to the "boy (man) next door" look - you definitely don't have to have a perfect body, body hair is always well accepted - I guess because my body is far from perfect I feel much more comfortable with guys that aren't perfect either!

Of the more literary blogs I follow, some of the other blogs I follow and read are very sexy.  Some explore the difficulties guys in my situation are going through others are more of an insight into how horny us guys really are.  At the moment my level of horniness is just off the scale.  In one way, I love the feeling of being horny - it makes me feel alive and I actually find it quite exciting because it makes me want to look for sex and often that means I don't know where I'll end up or who with.  But as a result of that it can also be very frustrating when I can't find an appropriate outlet for the feelings and at the same time that leads me to feel even hornier because when I'm like this - there are almost no limits to what I am prepared and willing to do with a guy - given the opportunity.

I haven't had sex with a guy for a long time!  I think it's an in-built part of me that needs the touch and feel of another man.  Given my situation I understand how difficult it is to arrange with someone else in a suitable place and a suitable time.  A guy I had a great connection with last year contacted me a week or so ago.  I'm still totally in love with him.  He was (and still is) absolutely everything I could have hoped to find in a guy.  I'm still not sure why it never worked out (as I had hoped) but I would love to try again.  Our meetings were pure pleasure (for me).  I loved everything about him - from his look (he was tall, dark skinned totally masculine), his amazing body, his long legs, right down to the sexy underwear he wore (always tanga briefs).  I hope we can arrange a time to meet soon - I totally miss his touch, his kiss, his smell - everything about him.  I know he reads this blog - not sure how often though - but if he does - I still totally love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to reality - my view counter has whizzed up thousands of views since I installed it and I'm very excited to see it.  I know it's very pessimistic of me, but I don't have any reason to doubt its accuracy.  Thanks again to all who read, enjoy and comment.

I really enjoy getting your comments.  If people would like to send me comments privately by email, please let me know and I will forward you an email address.

8 comments:

  1. I wanted to keep encouraging you to write and feel we are on very similar paths so selfishly I need more of your stories and thoughts. And I am also in one of those same horny periods and you just have a way with words in capturing it.

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  2. I have a good post lined up for tomorrow.

    Hahaha - get your lube and Kleenex ready!

    Thanks for the comment!

    TLQ

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  3. You're right about the boy next door type - they are totally hot as hell. Don't get me wrong - the perfect porn star guys can do it for me too, but I know that they are pretty much unattainable.

    I think we all go through "dry spells" from time to time - whether its because we don't have the time, or things just don't work out with someone.

    Looking forward to tomorrow's post.

    -nl

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  4. Just found your blog through the BiLikeMe blog and i'll follow you!

    I'll read your entire blog.
    What country are you in? UK?

    Chris in california

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  5. Hi LQ!

    I've just found your blog through 'More Ordinary People'(Ordinary Holiday People post) and checked in for a visit.

    While here, I've stolen one of your photos for use on my own blog - if that's ok.

    You're certainly welcome to visit mine, although it's mostly pictures, most of the time - and it's definitely for "special" tastes!

    It's called 'CHAIRMEN' and it's at:

    http://ceemen.blogspot.com/

    I've enjoyed what I've read so far, here, and I'll be coming back for regular visits.

    Best Wishes!

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  6. You can't find the "...appropriate outlet for your feelings." Did you ever consider your wife? You married gays are the worst - hooking up now with the internet is just way too easy for you. You'll continue to stay married and closeted, continue to get your dick fix when you need it and most likely, continue to laugh at the fag jokes told around the office (best case) or, and heaven forbid, stand around some night while your drunk buddies are beating the crap out of someone like me and just so your cover isn't blown, get in a few kicks and punches yourself. (worst case) Grow a pair and come out - if you're truly bi then continue to fuck men and women, just don't hide behind a marriage to do it.

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  7. I have never claimed that the way I live is the right way (or wrong way) nor is this blog intended to be any kind of defence of the way I live. But yes, this is how I live and I am definitely not the only person in the world to live like this. If I am happy living this way, then it's not your problem or your concern.

    Please don't judge me based upon your own incorrect and misconceived perceptions of gay married men because clearly (based on your last comment) you are completely and utterly wrong.

    I too may be wrong, but please don't be jealous of the way I live, it is not easy - but please be accepting of people who have chosen to live their life in a way different to your own.

    Thanks for commenting though.

    I think I shall post about this tomorrow.

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  8. To Jwazzz those are some big leaps you make between being married and closeted to gay-bashing!

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