The musings and ramblings of a horny, married and closeted gay guy!!!!
Friday, 19 March 2010
Although I've only been dieting for a couple of months, I like to think I'm beginning to feel the positive effects of the efforts I'm putting in to losing weight. I am now trying at least twice a week to go out for a good power walk. Almost every Friday morning I'm available as nobody is at home and that's my time. I normally walk about 9 kilometers and the last few weeks I've been doing a bit of jogging too.
When I first ran I could force myself to run for only about 2 minutes before I thought I was going to collapse. Slowly every couple of weeks I have been trying to improve on that and today I managed to run non-stop for 13 minutes. To any of the super-fit guys out there that probably doesn't seem like too much - but for a fat, lazy bastard like me - I'm totally proud of what I have achieved. I am challenging myself with the running things to make my walks a bit more interesting - although I'm listening to music - walking can be very lonely and boring. So giving myself this little challenge gives me something to work towards.
I came into the office today although it's closed as I have a lot of hours to make up because of my running around during the week. Flirty office guy called me and we chatted for quite a long time about all kinds of stuff. Not really sure why he called (he'd been in the office himself earlier but had to leave before I arrived [he had already called me earlier in the day to tell me he would be leaving earlier than planned]). I enjoy speaking to him a lot and not just for the obvious reasons. He's intelligent and a really nice guy to talk to.
The other day as he left work he gave me a big hug too - I'm not sure why he did it - but I accepted the hug with open arms!!!
Yesterday was a weird day for me, not sure why. I think it was a mixture of tiredness and stress with all the running around and I suddenly felt really low - it wasn't a panic or anxiety attack, but I just felt I wanted to be home and in bed. But things have sorted themselves out today - the walk/run this morning definitely helped and I'm feeling much better now.
Also positive thoughts - and there's nothing that turns me on more than a sexy guy in a pair of tanga briefs with a hardon inside. Definitely feeling better now!!!
I'm just a pretty normal married, closeted gay guy on the outside and a pretty complex guy on the inside. I've had cancer and been through quite a lot of stuff. Just looking to have fun and share my experiences with others!