Excitement

I'm feeling very positive today.  Woke up this morning early and did what I have to do so that I could go for a walk before going to the dietitian.  Had been thinking a lot about it and was determined to make one last effort before the big weigh-in.  I actually enjoy walking, putting some music on and just walking and walking.  It's just the initial getting dressed and getting outside.  Once I'm outside I enjoy the chance to some time to myself. I guess I walked in an hour about 4-5 kilometers which is pretty good (perhaps a bit more).  Came back feeling really good.

I arrived at the dietitian's office early and waited until she called me.  She's is a very happy, bubbly person and we talked about some other issues and then I got on the scales.   I had already made sure I was wearing light clothes and removed everything from my pockets - keys, phone, wallet.   It's one of those old-fashioned scales where she slides the weight along a metal pole (not too sure how to describe it).  I watched her sliding the weight along and was super-surprised to see I'd lost 5 kilos!!!  I was so happy - I had worked hard (although I could have worked harder maybe) but it was definitely a result!

Because of other things going on, I sat and chatted with her for about 30 minutes.  It was quite amazing how well she could understand the mind of a person with an eating disorder (not me) and she was just so helpful and willing to do whatever she could.  She even realised how much I needed the talk myself and I'm not sure how I'm going to go about it offering it, but she gave me advice that I need to offer to someone else.  Her desire to help was just incredible.

So it was a mega-incentive for me to carry on with the diet and work harder to achieve better results for my next visit in a month's time.  The dietitian told me that I don't really need her, but I explained that I need to know that even if it's only once a month, that I'm under some kind of supervision so I will continue to work hard and get to a more healthy weight.  I think without the supervision I will get bored and give up.

On an even lighter note - spent some time today working with Flirty office guy.  He's quite fit and goes rowing a lot in the sea.  He told me how the last time he rowed - it was very cold and when he got out of the water his balls had shrunk to almost invisible.  There was also a lot of sexual innuendo coming from him.  We were working in a room full of people so I'm not sure if he's just joking because if he wasn't, there was no way either of us could have actually done anything - even if we'd had the courage to do something.

This has definitely given me a good start to the weekend.