The musings and ramblings of a horny, married and closeted gay guy!!!!
Thursday, 11 February 2010
I'm feeling very positive today. Woke up this morning early and did what I have to do so that I could go for a walk before going to the dietitian. Had been thinking a lot about it and was determined to make one last effort before the big weigh-in. I actually enjoy walking, putting some music on and just walking and walking. It's just the initial getting dressed and getting outside. Once I'm outside I enjoy the chance to some time to myself. I guess I walked in an hour about 4-5 kilometers which is pretty good (perhaps a bit more). Came back feeling really good.
I arrived at the dietitian's office early and waited until she called me. She's is a very happy, bubbly person and we talked about some other issues and then I got on the scales. I had already made sure I was wearing light clothes and removed everything from my pockets - keys, phone, wallet. It's one of those old-fashioned scales where she slides the weight along a metal pole (not too sure how to describe it). I watched her sliding the weight along and was super-surprised to see I'd lost 5 kilos!!! I was so happy - I had worked hard (although I could have worked harder maybe) but it was definitely a result!
Because of other things going on, I sat and chatted with her for about 30 minutes. It was quite amazing how well she could understand the mind of a person with an eating disorder (not me) and she was just so helpful and willing to do whatever she could. She even realised how much I needed the talk myself and I'm not sure how I'm going to go about it offering it, but she gave me advice that I need to offer to someone else. Her desire to help was just incredible.
So it was a mega-incentive for me to carry on with the diet and work harder to achieve better results for my next visit in a month's time. The dietitian told me that I don't really need her, but I explained that I need to know that even if it's only once a month, that I'm under some kind of supervision so I will continue to work hard and get to a more healthy weight. I think without the supervision I will get bored and give up.
On an even lighter note - spent some time today working with Flirty office guy. He's quite fit and goes rowing a lot in the sea. He told me how the last time he rowed - it was very cold and when he got out of the water his balls had shrunk to almost invisible. There was also a lot of sexual innuendo coming from him. We were working in a room full of people so I'm not sure if he's just joking because if he wasn't, there was no way either of us could have actually done anything - even if we'd had the courage to do something.
This has definitely given me a good start to the weekend.
I'm just a pretty normal married, closeted gay guy on the outside and a pretty complex guy on the inside. I've had cancer and been through quite a lot of stuff. Just looking to have fun and share my experiences with others!