The musings and ramblings of a horny, married and closeted gay guy!!!!
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
I'm often under the misunderstanding that my posts need to be long, rambling literary works. I guess like most people there are days which are just very quiet and I have very little to say. That doesn't mean that I'm neglecting the blog or giving up, but I have decided it's better some days not to write anything than to write shite.
The last couple of days have been just like that. I've not been in a very good mood and I'm pretty down. Although I put on a great face. Following the big argument with my wife last week - we're still not speaking and basically because of lots of other things around - I can't even be bothered to make up with her. My constant thinking about my situation (don't get me wrong - I'm not looking for sympathy) has left me drained and without any kind of desire to do anything else.
A good friend told me that not resolving arguments leaves you full of resentment - and he's absolutely right. But that's what has happened and how much resentment can one person take before it boils over to something more? I don't know. But I definitely feel I'm getting to the point where I stop caring. It's a horrible situation to be in.
I guess things will resolve themselves one way or the other. But that's why my blog posts have been a bit patchy recently. But I'm still enjoying having this outlet to vent and rant. I hope I sometimes make you smile too.
I'm just a pretty normal married, closeted gay guy on the outside and a pretty complex guy on the inside. I've had cancer and been through quite a lot of stuff. Just looking to have fun and share my experiences with others!