Happy Birthday

Well actually my birthday is this weekend and I'm going to be 38.  I guess I'm getting very old.  So I am going to let you all know me a little better and will try to write 38 things about me!

1. My first gay sex was at age 17
2. I don't really care for ice cream
3. I like the volume of the radio in my car to be on a number that is divisible by 5 (i'm a bit OCD about some things)
4. I hate wasting food
5. I love taking things that are free
6. Of all the sex I've had over the years - seriously memorable fucks can be counted probably on 1 hand
7. I believe it's possible to fall in love and have a relationship with a man while still being married to a woman
8. I prefer to be a top with guys and even to the point of domination
9. I don't mind being fucked - but it happens very, very rarely
10. I prefer regular Diet Coke over all other colas and pepsis
11. I'm a compulsive over-eater but those who follow my blog know that I'm trying to control that now
12. I love porn and my favourite is gay amateur - but depending on my mood will sometimes look at MMF porn - straight porn does nothing for me
13. I would love to have more comments, feedback and emails from my blog
14. I spend way too much time looking for gay sex, but actually find very, very little, if any
15. Working in the office at night makes me horny
16. I don't drink coffee, but have recently started drinking Earl Grey tea once in a while
17. I gave up smoking for 1½ years and I'm pretty much back to smoking too much again
18. I survived cancer
19. If I could, I think I would enjoy having sex everyday
20. I am blessed with having someone amazing people in my life
21. I love watching reality TV and soap operas
22. I think I give the impression of being much cleverer than I actually am
23. I hate being hairy and I wax my back and shoulders
24. I love hairy guys
25. I wish I had a much bigger cock
26. I would love to be wealthy
27. If I had to choose between a gorgeous hunk and have crap sex or a regular guy for great sex - I'd choose the regular guy - hunks don't do much for me
28. I'm obsessed with seeing guys in Tanga briefs, it drives me wild
29. When I strip a guy naked and he's wearing boxers, I'm always a little disappointed
30. I would love to be taller - although I'm 1.80
31. I would love to change my voice and the way I speak
32. I think my legs are my best feature
33. I would love to feel better about my body and wish I could be comfortable being naked around others
34. I have no preference to guys being short or tall or dark or light skinned
35. I would much rather kiss and cuddle than have penetrative sex and would love to take part in an orgy
36. Cruising in gay pick up areas is dangerous and stupid but I love doing it
37. I'm really pleased I started blogging but wish I had more time to devote to it
38. I want more children

Thanks for all who managed to get to the end of the list.

Thanks for reading.

Here's to another year of happiness and good health.

Last year's party pics (I wish!!!)

Staring Dilema

I'm never sure if it's just my crap luck or whether I spend too much time looking for things that don't exist but I always find myself attracted to guys that leave me wondering "are they or aren't they?"

I'm sure I mentioned this guy in another post, but couldn't find it.  He works for another company in the building in more of a blue collar job - in charge of their warehouse or something similar - I'm pretty sure he doesn't have an office job, as such.  Anyway, a few months ago I noticed him by the lifts, he's older than me - I would assume very late 40s or early 50s.  Dark skinned, short, buzzed hair, smooth arms around my height - well maintained for his age - he has a very serious look on his face at all times and a deep masculine voice (I'd heard him talking to others).  I noticed him looking at me and immediately my gaydar began ringing very loud.  I don't know why, but there was something in the way he looked at me that didn't seem right - as though the gaze was a couple of seconds longer than it should have been - it was almost more of a stare than a look.  Naturally, I stared back!

This ping-pong looking at each other has been going on for a couple of months.  I have been going downstairs to the car park - he seems to spend a lot of time in the store-room there (which makes me think that's where he works) he would look at me (while I'm having a cigarette) and I would look at him (he would also light up a cigarette when he saw me).  But we never spoke, just looking at each other... until yesterday.

As I went out of the back door of the office towards the car park - he was standing by the door.  Instinctively I kinda nodded at him to acknowledge him (I may be horny but I'm not rude!) and he immediately started talking to me.  We began chatting about smoking and how we'd both given up many times but always come back to it.  Despite his normally very serious, almost angry face, he was very smiley and we joked about things.  He made it clear that he had a wife, as did I - but again, perhaps it's just me and my screwed-up head but it just didn't seem right.  Not that I don't believe what he said just more that he was making it abundantly clear to me that he is married.

The conversation ended as our cigarettes burned out and we were talking about if he gives up smoking then he'll give up coffee and eating meat and the only thing he'd have left to enjoy would be staring at women.  Was this to put me off the scent?  Did I totally misread his stares?  I'm not sure why, but I'm curiously attracted to him.  I looked for him today but he wasn't around.

We shall see...naturally, you all will be the first to know if anything should develop.

Have a good one!

Routine

I didn't want people to think I've stopped blogging in despair that Flirty office guy no longer works with me.  It's not the case, we've spoken on the phone and on Skype.  It seems no matte what we talk about it always ends up with huge sexual innuendos, which is always good.  We are planning on meeting up soon one evening for a drink or something, not sure when that will happen.

Things with me are pretty much the same - still running around like a crazed person being a taxi driver - but I've got into a routine so it's not so bad.  I'm still working late and still getting very horny about doing it - still not too sure why.  I'm also full cycle again and horny as hell.  I'm horny to the point where any guy I see no matter if he's old, young, short tall, thin or fat - he's a possible.  Naturally, nothing ever comes of it - but who knows?  Stranger things have happened.

I'm still dieting - I'm slowly beginning to feel quite good about myself - I can't remember if I blogged but I've now lost just over 10 kilos and I don't have another appointment with the dietitian for another 2 weeks - so hopefully I can lose some more by then.  Because of my crazy schedule I don't have much time for walking-running which is a bit annoying because I really enjoyed it - but always manage at least once a week.

The wife's job seems to be going OK.  She seems to be handling everything in her life pretty well - although it can be difficult.  I hope it lasts - but it's looking good so far!

Just wanted to give a quick update of where I am - so any regular readers can be updated.  I'd still love to receive emails, questions, pictures and comments from anyone who wants to make the effort.

Take care and thanks to all my new followers and those that regularly check out my blog!

... Has Now Left the Building

Well yesterday was Flirty office guy's last day in the office.  It was pretty uneventful.  I'm sad he's gone - he was a good friend.  I already called him today, I miss the interaction that we had between us!  We are planning on meeting in the next few days to go out for a drink.

Keeping my fingers crossed we can get from picture 1 to picture 2 in the near future.  What I wouldn't do for just five minutes with him.

But life goes on.  A new guy started working in the office yesterday too, by coincidence, he's a hotty too - also married.  But I think he might be one of those genuine straight guys - but we shall have to wait and see.

My god, I'm obsessed!!!

Now that I have spent the best part of 5 months documenting my life, it seems very bloody boring a lot of the time.  I read a lot of other blogs and some of the guys seem to lead such exciting lives with non-stop action and fucking all over the place and amazing stories.  It makes my blog seem a little lacking.  I often wish I had the freedom of movement that so many other guys seem to have in terms of working and getting out and running around during the day - my work is totally office-based so don't have the opportunity to wander around.

But on the bright side, I don't work so hard and I sit in front of the computer and spend a way-too-large part of my day looking at things which I know I shouldn't be looking at - but it fills a void to a certain extent.  But being the optimistic guy that I am, I prefer to be happy with what I've got and not worry about being like other guys.  Nobody says their lives are any easier or better or more fulfilling than mine.

Not so long ago I met a "fuck buddy" of mine.  I have mentioned him before on my threesome post.  He's the MD of a company and the most masculine man you could possibly imagine.  His big and has a tough look on his face all the time, yet when he's with another guy he loves to be totally passive.  There's something about that mixture that just drives me wild.

Although we've known each other for a number of years, we actually meet very rarely due to timetable conflicts.  We had been exchanging emails and we planned to meet late in the evening in a quiet area surrounded by small forest.  It was very dark and that only added to the fun.  I parked my car and jumped into his jeep as we headed deeper into the trees.  We drove for a couple of minutes and found a quiet clearing.  He's probably about 6' 5" and about 130 kg - but there is something very sexy about him.  He's also hairy - which is something I do like on a man!

We both got out of the jeep and I walked around to his side.  I immediately stripped him naked - pulling off his white t-shirt and taking down his sweat pants - he had no underwear on.  I grabbed his cock hard and squeezed it tight.  He squirmed, but I knew he liked it.  I ordered him to his knees and he began opening my belt and jeans.  I pulled them down and he began sucking me.  I began to push his head down on my already rock hard cock.  I then grabbed his head and began fucking his mouth.  He was gagging - but I continued.

I pulled him up and we began kissing.  It was always something he was dead-set against, but I have managed to persuade him to learn to like it and albeit a little reluctantly he kissed me back.  I also know that he loves have his arse played with - and I am always happy to oblige.  He leaned into his car and pulled out a small plastic bag with condoms and KY inside.  He handed me the KY and I began smearing it generously on his hole.  I immediately began playing with his hole and then slid 1 finger inside.  His whole framed jumped as it went inside as I began fucking him with my finger from behind.  He had the driver's door open and was leaning over - his head on the driver's seat of the car.  I now had 2 fingers inside him and was spanking him relentlessly - each time he was asking for more! 

I leaned over his back and grabbed his head and pulled it back (he likes it rough) and ask him if he wants me to fuck him.  He said yes and I made him say it loud and to tell me that he wants to get fucked by me.  When he had told me enough I made him get a condom out and then put it on my throbbing dick. 

I pushed him back over - and pushed his head down into the driver's seat and pushed my cock inside him hard and fast.  He jumped again, but I know how he likes it, so I didn't stop and began pumping away at him - holding his head down spanking his arse at the same time.  It felt good.  I was close but wasn't ready to cum.  So I pulled out of him and took the belt off my jeans.  While he was still leaning over, I grabbed his arms behind his back and began whipping him with my belt.  Each time the belt slapped on his buttocks I made him ask for another one (a la Animal House - please sir, may I have another!).

I went back to fucking him some more - I was so horny - I couldn't stop myself - I knew he was rock hard too.  I pulled and turned him around towards me.  I used my belt to tie his hands behind his back before grabbing his cock and jerking him off - he tried to release his hands but I pulled tighter on the belt around his wrists - jerking him non-stop.  He was groaning with pleasure - his body almost completely under my control.  I felt his cock twitch and he began shooting an enormous load on the floor by the wheel of his car - his cock was so sensitive his body jerked each time I stroked his cum-covered cock.  I put him back on his knees, his hands still tied behind his back as he began to suck me off to satisfaction - I pulled out of his mouth just as I was about to shoot and let him watch my load fly into the same direction as his.

Both of us dressed and got back into the jeep as he took me back to where I'd parked my car.  We shook hands and said we must do it again soon.

I guess my life isn't as boring as I think it is. 

Adventures

Of all the things I've done with other guys, all the people I've met and had sex with and all the different places I've done these things one of the most "exciting" places has definitely been the sauna.

I'd heard about gay saunas a lot but had never had the courage to go and visit.  I had always imagined them to be very daunting, even frightening, with men wandering around menacing the other people there.  I don't know where this idea came from and I later learned that I couldn't have been more wrong.

It was by chance the first time I ever went to a sauna.  I was at a local cruising area in the middle of the day.  An older guy began staring at me before approaching me and we began to chat.  It was a very hot day and the cruising area was pretty dry.  He asked me if I'd ever been to the sauna and I told him that I hadn't.  He said that he was thinking of going there and would I like to join him - he even offered to pay for me to go.  I wasn't too sure what to do but immediately found myself saying "yes, I'd love to".  I'm never one to turn down a good adventure and he reassured me that my ideas about what goes on in the sauna were totally wrong.  We headed towards his car and we chatted some more.  He was a very nice guy, a lawyer.  He told me in the car that we could fool around together but that I didn't need to feel obliged to be with him and that I could go and do my own thing.

He parked the car and we headed down a small alleyway off a busy road.  We entered a side door of a large, old building.  There was a large doctors surgery upstairs and people were walking in and out (unaware I'm sure of what goes on in the building) but we went downstairs into the basement.  As we went down the second flight of stairs the entire atmosphere changed and it was much darker.

The lawyer rang a doorbell and a man suddenly appeared at a little window by a door.  "Two for the sauna please".  The lawyer paid the money and he was handed two freshly laundered towels and the door buzzed and we went inside.  We walked straight into the locker room.  I wasn't too sure what to do, but the lawyer told me to undress and put the towel on. 

Some of the customers already inside heard the door buzz and several guys wrapped in just a towel appeared in the locker room and fumbled about at their locker.  I undressed and waited for the lawyer to put his towel on.  At the far end of the locker room was the entrance into the sauna.  We walked through into a lounge area with a large screen TV showing some hard core gay porn film.  A couple of guys were lounging on the sofas watching the film.  Across the room was a large window looking into a large jacuzzi with about 3 guys sitting inside.  Music was also playing very loudly.  The lawyer motioned me through another door into the shower area.  Another door from the shower area lead into the steam room.  I walked inside.  There were a few guys inside but it took me a while to make out what was happening in there until my eyes adjusted to the darkness and the steam. 

I saw there were large steps against the wall where some guys were sitting so I went and sat down.  The lawyer guy sat next to me.  I felt his hand on my thigh, stroking it gently as his hand slid up my leg to my rock hard cock.  The whole place was electric, you could feel the sex in the atmosphere of the place.  It was very calm and I was getting very sweaty.  I put my hand on his leg and felt his small, hard cock and we began stroking each other gently.  I leaned into him and said I could hardly breath in here and he said I should go for a walk around and that he was staying in the steam room for a while. 

I went out to explore further.  Once outside the shower area, I noticed a wooden door which lead into the dry steam room.  I went inside but it was empty.  I sat for a minute trying to tolerate the heat, but it got too much for me.  I left the room and made my way back to the lounge area - I noticed a black curtain to another room.  I walked through it and realised it was the beds.  There were two levels of cubicles containing mattresses.  Each cubicle had its own curtain giving the occupants a certain level of privacy.  I stood still and listened.  I could hear couples inside the cubicles - groaning, slapping and the general sounds of people having sex.

I was still in a certain level of shock.  This place was almost magical.  It was full of naked men having sex or cruising for sex.  There was no need to worry about being seen or getting caught.  Suddenly the curtain to the cubicle area opened and the lawyer walked towards me with a smile on his face.  He leaned into me and in a whisper he asked me "so, what do you think?".  As he leaned in to speak, I felt him grab my cock again.  I was so horny, the place, the atmosphere, the new experience had sent my horniness levels over the top.  He lead me into one of the cubicles closing the curtain behind us before taking off his towel (and mine) and laying me down on the mattress.

He began to suck my cock and at the same time I leaned forward and grabbed his cock.  We were both horny and both of us came pretty quickly.

I had probably only been at the sauna for about an hour, but it left a great taste and me definitely wanting more.  I later discovered another sauna which was literally a five minute walk from my office.  I used to visit it frequently.  I found it very difficult to sit in the office and concentrate when I knew that just a few minutes away there were guys having sex and I always want to be a part of it.  It was almost like an addiction on which I spent too much time and too much money.

Eventually I changed job and now almost never get the chance to go to the sauna, maybe once or twice a year.  But the adventures that I've had there have generally been very good and very exciting.

Catching Up

My last few posts have been somewhat sex-related and I don't think I've been dedicating nearly enough time to my blog as I should be.  For anyone who is even remotely interested, a quick update of what's being going on in my life is here!

I'm a little devastated at the moment - Flirty office guy told me a couple of days ago that he is leaving the company.  He has been offered a new job in a start-up company and in less than a month will no longer be working here.  Does this mean I will never get to see him naked?  To touch him intimately?  I really don't know - but it's not looking good.  I'm sure we'll still stay in touch and remain friends but it does mean there will be no more working late or together anymore.  But I'm hoping for a long lingering goodbye kiss at the very least.

On a happier note, I was at the dietitian this week and I lost another 2.5 kilos.  So in total, so far, I have lost just over 10 kilos which makes me very, VERY happy.  (That's 1½ stone to the UK readers!!).  It really hasn't been too difficult at all.  Because of the crazy work hours I'm doing at the moment I'm not running nearly as much as I should be - but the fact is the weight is coming off slowly, but surely and that can only be a good thing.  The dietitian and I kind of agreed that I would go for losing another 5 kilos and then we would "talk again" about whether that would be enough or whether I should continue going to see her.  I really enjoy my "sessions" with her and see it as some good therapy - talking with someone who can understand a lot of what is happening with me.

I am also currently in the middle of a parental visit.  My parents live overseas and haven't actually seen them (excluding Skype) for just over a year.  My daughter is very excited as she really misses them.  I enjoy seeing them, but they can be very hard work!  They're only here for a week and so far - everything is going OK.  My wife is behaving very well with them and has been very welcoming (which is quite a pleasant change).  I just hope we can get through the weekend without any major mishaps and I'll be home and dry!!!

I would still love to hear from anyone to my email with comments, questions, pictures, requests.  I love receiving the feedback from the people who read my blog and it definitely gives me the drive and desire to continue writing.

Have a great weekend!